Lance Ma | 17 | Bay Area | c/o 2014 | Key Clubber |

Thinking..

Me: Guys i have something to ask you guys..

The Boys: Wsup man,

Me: What you guys think about my girlfriend?

The Boys: She cool and she got the cute  girl dressing style. Why whats wrong?

Me:She changed alot after her ap testing days.

The Boys: Is that why you been sad lately.

Me: i guess, i been thinking what i can do, but everytime i try to talk to her. she always answering with one word or she just blast up on me..

Danny: Dude maybe she going through alot of things atm and she really need some spots to be alone without you texting her.

Me: Well i know she been busy and stressing but she could like told me to go away or some.. 

Tony: Dude you really just drop what you think cause you going to kill youself inside and she going to think you giving up on her..

Me: But, im not trying to give up on her, im just trying be a good boyfriend and be there for her..

Tony: She know you love her but if you going to keep letting it bring you down, then you going to gett so tired of her and leave her

Me: im not going to leave her.. i love her too much -.-

Ken: Be strong man, everything will be back to normal in no time.

Danny: just let her think and let her have spot to herself, she just got out of ap testing anyways.

Me: ( Tear up alittle) Life is so hard.. i want quit school..

Danny: NEVER quit school. NEVER

Tony: School is every all the fun come from when you know how to make it fun.

Me: I know that but school just putting alot of pressure on me and i cant handle everything at once.

( All the Girlfriends and girls came)

Everyone all with there Boyfriends/Girlfriends

Me: (give a beer) Aye tony im go walk around alone.

Tony: Alright be safe

Me: ( walk off alone and look at the beach)

Talking to my mind.

Me: i really want to help her but i dont know how. im so useless, why life having to be so stupid to me. i dont like my life nomore. IM SO DUMB!! ( Throw a rock in the water and sat on the rock and look at the water move)

Random Girl: Hey what you doing?

Me: Hi, im just thinkingg

Girl: what you thinking about? may i help?

Me: No it okay, it nothing to really tell people about.

Girl: Well just let it go for tonight and just injoy the party.

Me: for now, but it going to keep coming to me..

Girl: Just keep drinking and drink untiil it leave.

Me: i dont drink alot nomore..

Girl: why?? u use to drink alot huh?

Me: Yeah.. but i quit that cause i hurt someone.

Girl: oooo do you smoke?

Me: no i quit.

Girl: Dang what a good boy..

Me: i guess, Thank..

Girl: whats your name btw?

Me: I’m Lance, Nice to meet you..

Girl: Nice to meet you too, im Becca btw.

Me: ooo nice name..

Girl: thanks.. anyways do you know everyone over there.

Me: Yeah.. we all family.

Girl: ooo famous boy.

Me: Nahh knew them since middle school when they was all in high school.

Girl: oooo dang, anyways you’re cute

Me: Thanks, but im really not..

Girl: Yeah you are, (push me)

Me: No im not, 

Girl: well im go back to drinking.

Me: Okay Bye… 

Girl: here my number so you can text me..

Me:(gave the paper and wait until she walk away and throw the paper in the water and text Tony Who invited that girl Becca?)

Tonyy:( Repy back Shiet i dont know her, maybe she danny;s friend or some.. just injoy the party. i talk to you later)

Me:( Reply back, nah im cut out. im go drive alot,)

Tony: okay be safe

Me:Peace. ( turn off phone)

My Night went okay, im still thinking. i dont know what to do.

cant feel my body.. i keep throwing up blood, i been so tired for the past few days. dont even feel like myself nomore… what is wrong with me…. 

master
@xdannaa is my master
FUCK YOU

TOO MUCH PUSSY OUT HERE.Fuck a fake friends, where the Real homies at.. 

life is so hard.
Hate hanging with friends sometime.

They all Couples and im the lonely one :( 

Stupid ass bitch.. no1 even talking about you and u think im talking shiet about you.. u dont even know the fuken story and u talking shiet already.
The older you get, Things get smaller and weirder to me.
your the first girl i really dont want to lose.

-cry-